Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Are we able to find love again?

For those whom have been abused sexually or raped in any way or form,
I imagine some if not most, wonder, if Love, truly exists?
  I mean for all we have been through and or some might be going through,
love might seem like a very foreign concept to some, to others, like myself, at one point I associated love with pain.
   Others might think Love exists but somehow cannot come our way, because we have been tainted or vilified in some way.  And believe me, I was there, many a time, in which I simply thought, I am just not good enough to find love, or be loved, and I would never do much to find out if this thing called love existed or not.
   These past 4 years, I have been on the road to healing from all my pain and old and new wounds.  You know, If I were to count each heart break, each hurt and each wound inflicted directly or indirectly towards my person, I should truly be dead by now but am very much alive.   If you were to look at all your inner wounds and find yourself breathing, that means that somehow within you, an important part of your heart is hidden within.
   Love does exist, I am sure of that now, but for those whom have never been abused in any way or form, it is hard for you to see why we either hate, or fear Love in itself, and tend to push you away, or just build a fortress around ourselves, thinking the only way to stay safe, is if Love is kept at some distance from us.
  Yet, what was done to me, and you, was not an act of love nor does it represent love in any way, it was simply an act of defilement, in which the person doing what they did was acting upon their own selfish desires, and whom used the word love to make it seem as if what was being done, was indeed normal or not so bad as it might have seemed, yet that is a big, fat lie!
   The whole thing about those whom have either been abuses sexually or raped, an image is created within us, and we tend to marginalize ourselves, because we feel too exposed and rather be alone than with anyone, be it family or friend.
  I admit upfront, that if someone were to ask me how to find Love or even start a relationship with anyone, I am the last person you should ask as I have no clue, but am starting to learn at this time.
  And I do believe, that once we allow ourselves to heal, Love, can be found, in the right form, and at the right time, but we must deal with our demons, first, before being able to see Love for what it truly is.
            Peace,
               Angel4Eternity

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