I am pretty tired and beat up, after helping carry heavy furniture up a flight of stairs, ect..but all in all, the results of all this, has been more than I have ever dreamed of!
From all the times I have had to move from place to place, this last move has been the hardest of all. Why, you may ask, well, first off, its more to do with the fact that I ended falling for," R", in a way, I did not expect, and in the end the outcome of that, did not play as I would have wanted to some extent, yet, there is some hope in the near future, of him and I trying to see more of each other, now that I am no longer living within his home.
I could not say goodbye, so I ended, saying farewell via email. Now since "R", has had a painful and nasty divorce, his demeanor, is that of someone not worthy of anything or anyone, and in the end, as I told him, whom am I to judge him. I never asked what happened, nor why; I decided its best to leave that as it was, and made sure he never felt as if I were judging him in any way. To say the least my email was full of compliments, men, need to hear, and receive, and I did so, that he could see that no matter how broken his own heart has pulled him down, he still has so much to give of himself.
So, I cried, and was upset and crabby the last few days, knowing the day was near, and in the end, I am glad he was not in a rush to getting rid of my child and me, and let me sleep in, as he knew I was dead tired. I will never forget all he did for me, and maybe other things he never thought I would notice, I did. He is a great man full of many flaws as any other human being.
My daughter is happy that we moved out, cause she said I was driving her crazy and acting like a teenager in love. So, even if its true, would this be Love? Who knows, maybe yes, or maybe not.
In the end, now to move onwards in regards to our new home. The major changes are as follows:
- We are now living in a master bedroom in an upscale family home.
- Large private walk in closet, and I mean huge!
- A tub like jacuzzi, white, and large to hold two people.
- A separate Shower.
- The toilet is within its own little room. ( I love this)
- Two sinks, and two under cupboards to store our things in.
- The room is large enough that we each have our beds in different spaces, and with alot of space in between.
- No longer living in a basement.
- 6 large windows to let sunlight in!
- We are in charge of the heater/AC, as we have the houses main monitor in our room!
Two large living rooms, dining room, basement is huge and empty. An office downstairs, along with guest bathroom. Garage is for two vehicles. Large, massive backyard. and a good neighborhood.
My daughter, once I have her changed from her current school, will be taking the bus to and from school. Now, its up to me to make friends with a stay at home mom next door, and see if she is willing to help me out with letting Andy stay with her before and after school, as it will be taking me at least an hour to get home.
Traffic is heavy in this area, mainly the afternoon. I am still a bit tired, but am hopeful, to seeing more of "R", in the near future.
Ok, well, that is all for now.
Peace,
Angel4Eternity
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