Faith in the Unseen

I should be relieved and at peace today, yet I find myself,
fending off more negative thoughts and feelings, due to the fact,
that first my daughter got a staph infection on her right foot, and luckily has not
contracted a more severe form of MRSA.
Secondly, my landlord, informed me that I have 60 days to find a new home and move out by the 15th of June of this year.
Thirdly, I got my tax extension accepted, and now and trying to get some documentation needed to finish filing my tax report for federal taxes.
So, yes I am happy my daughter has not gotten worse and is getting better, that I was able to get the extension accepted and that we still have a place to call, " home".
Yet, one more thing, is I have committed to throwing her a surprise party and I feel as if I am not up to going through with it, but I will do it in the end.
Now, in all this, you might be wondering, well, how come, you say you believe in God, yet here you are complaining like anyone else would be, in a situation like this?
  God is here with me, and I still believe in Him, yet, at times, He allows my stubborn self, to vent out my frustrations, fears, and failures, and once I am done doing all this, He patiently awaits for me to just turn to Him and plead my case to Him.
   I am still as human as any one of you out there.  I still have my flaws and commit sins, that I know are wrong, yet I still choose to do.
  Yet, all in all, what has kept me going is my faith in the unseen.  Yes, I have cried many tears this week, and yes, I feel trapped, yet in the end, I know that once I allow Him to come near me, and open my heart to Him once more, He will hold me and comfort me, and whisper encouraging words to me, and guide me by His hand.
  At times, we can become frustrated when things do not go our way, or even when prayers seem to never be answered on time.  Yet, I have learned that He will answer in His timing not mine, and in the end, His timing is always perfect, verses our own timing.
  I have been crushed many times, by my own foolishness, and in spite of this, He has never stopped loving me less helping me.
  Crazy, right?  Well, this is just one human beings beliefs and moral standards.  I am no better than a criminal, murderer, less any human being that is despised by our society.
   Its just my faith that keeps me going.
           Angel 4 Eternity